watching irreversible again last year versus when i was 20 or so there was so much more fear from my side about what was happening what could happen
maybe because im older with more understanding of where people come from what they will do
in my work, im not representing my hatred properly theres a feeling i have inside of being wronged
it’s searing
u climb into my mind and my hand rips you and all your children open your ancestors all the people in your hometown
and how my mind works is loops i loop everything over and over again to make sense of it
like my work
i’ll look at some nodes over and over again an edit over and over again an image over and over again listening to sounds over and over again
in my mind theres always someone watching someone observing every decision sometimes Laughing that wasnt nice sometimes Cheering
every quality of every person ive not liked all the badness in the world and all its variations ive calculated and put them into a person and they live inside my mind
but they think it’s a joke everyone thinks it’s a joke