KONZUKO

So, at this point, as I told you, this time’s different. We’re not gonna rush to get you out of here. We’re gonna make sure you’re in tip-top before you can leave.

So, like I said, remember I’m on free fluids at this point. But at some point I start having a temperature. And they’re like, oh, this temperature’s not good.

So they’re concerned that there’s an infection or something caused by something. And they need to investigate what it is. This is what actually led to the CT scan and the flipping enema and the sodomisation and all of that stuff.

But, um, so, from free fluids, I’m back to sips. Not free fluids anymore, just water and these sorts of things. And they take out the central line.

Mind you, the way I tell you all of this stuff, it’s as if it just happened. This happened and that happened, no. The doctor would come in one morning when they say all this stuff.

It would happen the next day. So it was really dragged out. And they take out the central line because that can be a point of infection.

Because it’s going into a vein that’s really close to your heart. and then they say, okay, we’re going to give you a scan. And like I said, I ended up having two, so they made me drink this flipping liquid for the first scan. No enema this time. And disgusting liquid. I only drank a cup of it.

I know how this stuff works. They wanted me to drink this whole container of it. It was really horrible.

but I know that with these things, you don’t actually have to drink all of it, especially if you’re a smaller person. And, um, like you’re not flipping six-five and huge. And you can just lie.

And so I got the scan. They say, okay, there’s this slipping, not an abscess, but a collection or something. This is what? the next day.

And we need to drain it. They need to put in a drain. How are they going to put in a drain? They didn’t tell me how they’re going to do it right up until the day of the surgery.

This is because only the doctor knows How to do it. I was thinking, are they going to do it in? Cause it was sort of in my - the collection was in my abdomen area.

So are they going to just go in straight? Cause I’ve had something like that before. They just put tubing through there and sort of in the abdomen area or how are they going to do it? And before I go in to get this thing done, he, the surgeon actually operated on me and did the main surgery. He’s telling me, oh, there’s two ways you might do it.

Go in from the front or go in through the back. I’m thinking through the back, how are you going to go in through the back? And this just sends my mind, not at ease. I’m concerned.

So we go in and I, this is the really nice nurse. She takes me down. Very friendly.

This is the type of nice, so friendly type of person you’d marry. Anyway, so explained to her, I’ve had these surgeries before where they, where they kind of didn’t really explain what was going to feel the downplayed, what was going to happen. Primarily colonoscopies, and it was incredibly painful and they just lied.

But this doctor, he, he didn’t lie. He was, and this is one thing I really appreciated was - he didn’t lie. He didn’t downplay.

He said, it depends on your tolerance. He said, we’ll give you as much local anesthetic as we can. And if you want to stop at any time, say stop.

And the reason why they give you local is because they don’t, it’s more unsafe if you do it on the general and it takes more time and you need more personnel. So it’s just faster, easier, quicker, safer for them to have you in more pain - doing it the local way that doing it the general way.

And he was like, if it’s too much, we can just do it with the general. Okay. Now, mind you, the reason why I’m here getting this done is because of the temperature and the infection that I clearly had from this pocket, this collection of pus and whatever from the surgery.

It was getting, it was getting so bad that at some point I was sitting on my bed and I had started, this was actually the day I had started eating. So I had conflated the two, I was confused. So I had some light, some food, a light meal.

It was kind of plain. And I had a yogurt and I just finished. I couldn’t finish my yogurt, but my temperature was really, I was so hot.

I felt incredibly warm. It was really quiet. And I was sitting there, listening to music.

It was like, it was like I was dying. I just, so warm, kind of lightheaded, sitting, lying back, kind of 45 degree angle on my bed. Music was playing.

The world was super quiet. There weren’t that many people there at this point. And I kept drifting in and out of sleep, drifting in and out, drifting in and out to the point where I was getting, I was sleeping and I was dreaming and I was getting so hot inside the dream that I woke up and I pressed the button to call the nurse.

And then she came. I was like, I was so hot that I woke up. She checks my temperature and it’s like, you’re 39 degrees Celsius.

I’ve never been that hot in my life. I was really, really, really hot. The temperature was so high and she’s, the bed I was sitting on felt like a radiator.

I told her, I remember telling her and she was telling me, you know, it’s because of the hole, you know, the collection that needs to be drained and of course I knew that. So back to the drain. To be where I was in that morning, getting the drain, they literally dragged me out of bed, no teeth brushing, no nothing.

Wheeled me down, they put a face mask on me, pulled me into the CT, was it CT scan area? Because they did, they put the drain in near the CT scan machine because they needed to know where to go, they needed to be guided. Just before they put it in, they struggled putting the cannula in. They had to use the what’s it called? Ultrasound machine, had to go grab one.

There aren’t that many in hospital, this is what they always complain about, there aren’t that many, it’s hard to procure one but they got one. Did it, kind of hurt, there’s blood dripping down my arm. Anyway, he put the tube in my, in my in my butt cheek.

Look, I’m not gonna go through it in this part of the story because this is so visceral in my mind, I always remember step by step everything that happened, okay? Yeah, skipping past that. I have this tube, my butt, it fucking hurts and I needed to, it’s like being stage one again, the nurses had to help me, turn me over when I was in bed because it just hurt so much and it was in my butt cheek so it’s literally the place where you sit on. This is why it’s mad people get shot in the butt, don’t ever get shot in the butt, that’s one of the worst places to get shot and after a day or two it got, it didn’t really hurt, I could sit on it wherever but it was really annoying to have to walk with this tube in your butt, in your butt cheek just going really deep all the way into your sort of abdomen somewhere, I don’t even know where the tube went, they actually didn’t tell me or show me and I had that right until discharge.

Okay.