So going forward, one of the big problems I had um was still passing gas and yeah passing gas.
So by this time, how many days are we in? What, 11-12 days in?
And my body, I’m passing, like if I go into the toilet and I sit there for a bit, I can sort of, I was passing a bit of stool, I’m still nil by now at this point guys, remember, like I was passing a little bit of poop and I was farting a bit, releasing some gas at this point which is, oh this is great news, but I was still being sick.
This was really the worst week of that period
well, actually that’s a tough one to determine
because it was some other dark days as well and so because I’m,
I’m still, I still can’t do what I need to do,
I have this pain, as I said, as I can feel like I’m trying to pass gas
but instead there’s this fucking creeping pain around my abdomen
and actually hurts and I can’t even,
I try and it’s not coming out and so this whole sick thing is getting so bad and I’m at this point,
I’m absolutely petrified of drinking, consuming any water,
even though they’re still like, oh you can take sips, that we get to the point
okay, give him an NG tube, they schedule me the next day, I’m gonna get an NG tube
and I’m, okay, I’m ready, you know,
it’s not a comfortable thing to get a tube put down your nose all the way into your stomach
but here we are,
okay, and I, I, does he get, they decide, so we’re on what union, the surgical team that I deal with, they deal with, um, what are they called, I can’t remember the name of the surgical team, fuck, there’s a particular name but they get one of their junior doctors, I can’t remember, I feel like I knew the guy’s age but the guy couldn’t have been any older or same age, he could have literally been the same age as me and I’m looking at him prepare everything on the table next to me and I just feel concerned because he’s so focused on preparing the NG tube more so than he is and he can’t talk to me while he does it and I’m thinking in my head, I’m an intelligent person, this is a sign of just inexperience and he feels and looks and is acting inexperienced, like he’s seen theoretically how to do this but he doesn’t quite know how to do it properly, so this is kind of worrying me but I’m gonna be positive and be like okay, thinking I can do this, let’s get through this, so he starts putting a gel on the NG tube and getting ready to insert it and I’m saying don’t you have to measure it because I remember in my past years ago when I’ve had it inserted before, all the times it’s been successful, uncomfortable but successful, they, actually remembering this, it just feels terrible to remember now, it feels, but they’ve always measured it to see where my stomach is and he was like oh you know your stomach is, everyone’s stomach is usually this amount away,
it’s 140 centimeters or some shit like that, I can’t remember, 40 centimeters and blah blah blah this and this is typical so I don’t need to, I’ll know when I get to this point, I’m like okay and he was like but I’ll measure it for you, you know just so you can feel better about it, I’m like okay whatever, I am concerned by this point but maybe this is a different procedure, now just shortly before, so maybe this is a different procedure, so he goes in, he’s putting it in, I decided, initially I said put in my left nostril but then I decided okay put my right nostril because I can’t remember why, I just felt maybe that one was less blocked, maybe it would be more convenient to have it in that nostril instead and so he’s going in, he’s going in, he’s putting it through and he says oh swallow this water when I tell you to when we get to the point, when you can feel that it’s in your back of the throat and this is weird to me because I’m thinking hold on, I swallow when it gets, never in my life when I’ve done this have they put the onus on me to tell them when it’s time, they’ve always just guided me through it and then said swallow the water and I didn’t really have to think, now he’s making me think while I do it, this is really the point where I’m like damn this, this is actually where it’s going wrong, so he puts it in, everything’s going well,
I feed out the back of my throat and I tell him and then he tries to push it in, go down now, I’m swallowing the water, something’s not feeling right, I’m like whoa, it’s not, it feels really like there’s something in my throat, it really feels like there’s something in my throat, a foreign object that shouldn’t be there, I start like choking, I start coughing, he’s still trying to push it in, I’m like vomiting up bits of bile from my stomach as well and I’m coughing and I’m my eyes like I’re crying down my eyes as well and then he’s like oh should I keep going, he’s panicking, I’m like yeah keep going because I’m thinking at this point if we’ve gotten this far I want to get this over and done with and keep trying to keep going but then I’m like I’m not tolerating this at all, it’s just I’m coughing, I’m choking, I’m coughing shit up, like I’m wheezing, it’s like I’m like okay just take it out, take it out and then he takes it out and I’m coughing and I’m like what happened, it’s like what happened and then he’s like I don’t know and this has just never fucking happened before and then I tell him can you call someone to help me, a nurse to help me clean up this mess because I’ve just like got everything all over my bed now, I’m like a bit of flipping vomit now and a bit of whatever it’s my stomach fluid is now on there and there’s water everywhere and I’m flipping traumatized and she comes and I’m telling her look that guy, we need to get a nurse or someone else to do it, that guy can never put an NG tube in me again, he’s not gonna have a second try, the guy was like I can try again and I was like no you’re not gonna try again, I can tell he felt bad but what’s funny is I was saying to the nurse before he got his chance, I was joking with her this is a student nurse from one of these shitty student universities, nursing universities and she’s, I said no you should do it, I was like you should put the NG tube in, like you should do it for the practice, I said I’m down and then I remember what she said like no I’ve done it or blah blah blah, mind you I’m pretty sure this nurse was younger than me as well so it’s just funny because it’s not funny that like as if imagine you’re a 40 year old in hospital and there’s these 23 year olds who are your doctors, not in that sense but in a sense that these people are my peers, they’re the same age group, I go to university with people of the same age range right so it’s like a hospital of a classmate that’s why I find it funny and I explained to her what happened I’m telling her you know there’s no way now he’s gonna do that shit ever again and that’s funny and interesting thing this guy this doctor he makes another return in this story by the way.