KONZUKO

The final things running up till discharge,
just some funny social stuff not funny but um other patients, visitors,
the farting thing was still a problem right up until shortly near the end
where I could start farting probably, probably,
but the biggest issue I had in the final run was when I’d started eating
and I’d had this, I have a picture of it,
but I decided to get this curried mutton with Mali stew and rice,
so is that what I got or was it something else,
and no, no, no, no, it was the one with vegetables, had lots of vegetables
and it made me, and that’s the type of thing,
what I really learnt was this is when you have a surgery like this that affects your bowels,
stick to plain food, the doctors didn’t tell me BUT STICK TO PLAIN FOOD,
everyone was saying it’s like they’re fucking retarded
because even the family friend nurse didn’t say this,
like they wanted me to eat all these healthy foods and no,
you need to stick to plain food like mashed potato,
stuff with little, as little fiber as possible
because this food I ate, it was um the Jamaican, what’s it called,
the greens and the vegetables and it caused me gas again
and remember I couldn’t pass it at this point
and I think this was the culprit,
it was either that or the lactulose or both
because that day I was in so much pain again and I couldn’t pass gas It was trapped gas
and I didn’t get it and I was crying to the family member,
i was crying, i broke down crying, it was so bad, so bad - i couldn’t bear life anymore I was just there for the whole day just suffering,
I thought this was over but it wasn’t
and they gave me the painkillers and they took their time
after I was complaining and I kept telling them throughout the whole day,
nurse this is what’s going on, I’m in so much pain,
you can see the visible distress and I think the nurse waffled a bit,
pain tolerance and he’s in pain,
family member saying you know he’s never, he doesn’t complain this much when he’s in pain
so if he’s complaining, you know he’s serious,
it was serious, they gave me the painkillers and I believe it helped,
at this point I was like I’m not taking no flipping lactulose,
why are you giving me, I was so confused,
I was complaining to the doctor, why are they giving me lactulose when it’s,
I don’t have constipation, I don’t have, what the flip,
because I asked the nurse when she give it to me and she just said just take it,
there’s one of those jokey nurses, you know making jokes and stuff all the time
and I’m, I don’t get it
and so all this pain and suffering for what reason,
something I didn’t need to take
and the nurse, one of the nurses tried to,
when I told them I believe it was the lactulose that caused this,
this is while I was still in pain,
she tried to say something about some flipping metaphor,
analogy about pebbles in a stream, down the stream of a river,
it’s a river stream and what the fuck, like what,
actually it was a good analogy but this shit did not apply to me,
so it’s like nurses are going off old information,
information I don’t know, they’re not explaining themselves
and so frustrating

but on to the social things,
so one of the things I noticed because I was in that slot,
that month period, I was the one patient,
he was there the longest, by the time I’d left no one who had originally been there was there anymore,
if you know what I mean,
clearly there’d been people who’d been there a while before I came
but I’d managed to outlast all of them okay
and so in a war like this there’s six people let’s say
and you know you get your own space,
you have the curtains for privacy
and there’s one toilet for the patients
and then one toilet more in the area near the nurses desk for visitors
and you know in the first what two weeks of my stay it was a good experience
because a lot of people weren’t really using the toilet that well
and if they did they were respectful and this sort of thing,
you know they just treated it well
there was one guy who came in, his thing was really quick,
he was an asshole because he decided he’d just leave the TV on really loud,
I don’t give a fuck that there’s other,
there’s another guy at this point it was only me and him in there,
this was before they managed to fill it back up again in the ward
and he’s just like let me leave this TV on loud the whole day
right up until the evening until I complained to the nurse
that he needs to turn that fucking shit off,
so these are the type of stupid people you have at hospitals,
then there was a guy who was singing, Nigerian guy
because he was in pain and he couldn’t deal with it,
his condition was pretty bad so at some point he was just singing his pain away,
there was a guy who was talking to himself,
this guy had basically had one of his kidneys removed,
that was his surgery and he’d had cancer before
and at first I thought he was a teenager the way he was talking,
then he was talking about all this stuff and how his father had all of this stuff,
he was an old guy, that guy was annoying
because he’d listen to your conversation then respond to parts of your conversation,
it was just getting weird at some point
and it would be private conversations I’d be having with visitors or whatever
and then like I said the last the last week there was a guy,
this guy actually had a hemicolectomy so he had effectively the same surgery as me
so he went through all the nonsense that I went through,
but the thing that I noticed was he had when he got to the vomiting thing
where you know you’re meant to have sips of water,
your bowels not moving, all that stuff,
this guy decided you know what? I want to have jugs of water
and I’m gonna drink all of the water because I want to feel normal,
this was his excuse I heard him say this, okay
but the thing is he was still vomiting so he was retching loudly every day,
burping every day, this guy was in his 40s,
he’s a big man, it’s fucking disgusting
and then he was vomiting every day, vomiting everywhere,
he was filthy, his bed was filthy,
I remember seeing it like just glancing
and then he would vomit everywhere in the flipping bathroom,
you see trail of vomit all over the bathroom,
he was swallowing the bathroom completely,
it was fucking disgusting, this guy was disgusting
because he would prefer to drink water and vomit it all out
rather than be actually nil-by-mouth like he was told to
and you know keep it normal,
this guy was vomiting multiple times a day,
I remember to the nurse at night he was like can I have a jug of water?
and the nurse got angry with him
because she was going to go get it and she checked,
she’s like you’re nil-by-mouth, you can’t do that,
she had this little, somewhere from Eastern Europe, this accent that I liked,
she was a really nice nurse as well
and she’s like no you can’t do that to us, you can’t,
she’s stressed, understaffed, overworked
and this guy’s just yeah I’m gonna be sick everywhere,
can you go get me another jug of water because I’m bored,
I want to drink water,
it’s like he really took the piss and he,
this is worst case, one of the worst case scenarios in a hospital
where you have guys like this okay